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Ate a carbonara for the first time in forever. Tomorrow’s Halloween and I’m going out with mates - can’t wait to get my candy ❤️😋 #eatittobeatit #feelthefearanddoitanyway #eatingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anawarrior

Ate a carbonara for the first time in forever. Tomorrow’s Halloween and I’m going out with mates - can’t wait to get my candy ❤️😋
#eatittobeatit #feelthefearanddoitanyway #eatingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anawarrior
17 0 30 October, 2018

Goals 😍 had a horrible few days but hoping to shed a few this weekend from doing notttthing in the QLD heatwave ☀️

Goals 😍 had a horrible few days but hoping to shed a few this weekend from doing notttthing in the QLD heatwave ☀️
19 2 26 October, 2018

I ❤ collarbones. What& #039;s your favourite body goal? ~ not me ~

I ❤ collarbones. What's your favourite body goal? ~ not me ~
47 4 22 October, 2018

Setting goals for our family😎💭 Wait for this picture 1 year from today. #EDGoals #Teamtraining

Setting goals for our family😎💭 Wait for this picture 1 year from today. #EDGoals #Teamtraining
32 1 27 September, 2018

Despite what you may believe, those of us working in the ED will guarantee you, a very interesting pt population comes out in full force during the full moon phase. Today, was no exception lol -Shout out to my team for being rock stars 🏆 #shoutout #fullmoon #patience #edlife #EDgoals #MSW #wecantmakethisup #edchronicles

Despite what you may believe,  those of us working in the ED will guarantee you, a very interesting pt population comes out in full force during the full moon phase. Today, was no exception lol
-Shout out to my team for being rock stars 🏆
#shoutout #fullmoon #patience #edlife #EDgoals #MSW #wecantmakethisup #edchronicles
31 0 26 September, 2018

It’s that time of year again, my last day in paeds ED yesterday was marked with junk food, lots of laughs (and obviously lots of hard working too) and with catching another Wallace. I’m so sad to be leaving the amazing Team CED...Thanks for all the chats, laughs and cups of tea, you are all absolute heroes. I hope you enjoy the peace and quiet. So after an incredible 6 months it’s time to pack up the stickers, bubbles and helium balloons because I’m heading back to the Mead, watch out we are coming for you guys. EEEK! #worklife #changeoverday #teamCED #EDgoals #emergencymedicine #ilovemyjob #nhs #gu2 #wallaceandgromit #gottacatchthemall

It’s that time of year again, my last day in paeds ED yesterday was marked with junk food, lots of laughs (and obviously lots of hard working too) and with catching another Wallace. I’m so sad to be leaving the amazing Team CED...Thanks for all the chats, laughs and cups of tea, you are all absolute heroes. I hope you enjoy the peace and quiet. So after an incredible 6 months it’s time to pack up the stickers, bubbles and helium balloons because I’m heading back to the Mead, watch out we are coming for you guys. EEEK! #worklife #changeoverday #teamCED #EDgoals #emergencymedicine #ilovemyjob #nhs #gu2 #wallaceandgromit #gottacatchthemall
79 2 31 July, 2018

I haven& #039;t given my friends a shout out in awhile, but this one is pretty awesome. Adulting is... so hard sometimes #friends #shoutout #shesadoll #workfriends #ifyoucanworktogether #goals #adultingishard #whodoesthat #adulting #adultingisoverrated #EDlife #EDgoals

I haven't given my friends a shout out in awhile, but this one is pretty awesome. Adulting is... so hard sometimes #friends #shoutout #shesadoll #workfriends #ifyoucanworktogether #goals #adultingishard #whodoesthat #adulting #adultingisoverrated #EDlife #EDgoals
16 0 21 April, 2018

As PARENTS and TEACHERS how are you going to work with your school community to make this spring as successful as possible for your children and students?! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - #commit #recommit #goals #setyourgoals #spring #springbreak #welcomeback #edgoals #edchat #comment #community #schoolcommunity #teachers #parents #students

As PARENTS and TEACHERS how are you going to work with your school community to make this spring as successful as possible for your children and students?! - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - - -
#commit #recommit #goals #setyourgoals #spring #springbreak #welcomeback #edgoals #edchat #comment #community #schoolcommunity #teachers #parents #students
13 0 9 April, 2018

Dragging into Monday like 🤪. Days like this I feel as though I earned two graduate degrees just to get to @northstatebarbellclub to train after a day teaching. #mondays #womenwhopowerlift #edgoals #northstatebarbellclub

Dragging into Monday like 🤪. Days like this I feel as though I earned two graduate degrees just to get to @northstatebarbellclub to train after a day teaching. #mondays #womenwhopowerlift #edgoals #northstatebarbellclub
41 0 12 March, 2018

#lollypop 🤣 #edgoals

#lollypop 🤣
#edgoals
1 0 11 February, 2018

Oregon inspiration with the great Guadalupe Guerrero, Portland’s new superintendent. He is sure to create a great vision and outcomes for this city’s children! #portland #oregon #literacygoals #edgoals #publicschools #advocacy #edleadership

Oregon inspiration with the great Guadalupe Guerrero, Portland’s new superintendent. He is sure to create a great vision and outcomes for this city’s children! #portland #oregon #literacygoals #edgoals #publicschools #advocacy #edleadership
52 0 27 January, 2018

Whaha😂 // like if you saw it // #makedivegreat #makedivegreatagain #edsheeran #sheerio #edgoals #forest

Whaha😂 // like if you saw it // #makedivegreat #makedivegreatagain #edsheeran #sheerio #edgoals #forest
100 12 22 January, 2018

I noticed I gained some new followers recently...Hi y’all! Happy Saturday 🖤 These days I’m into mentoring and loving first-gen youth from low-income backgrounds & pushing them to be the next gen leaders! Also, working on starting season 2 of Redcouch Podcast with my hubby @prophiphop Expect stories > pictures on IG and LOTS on family milestones! Please feel free to intro yourself and share what’s your goal this year (or in life)? 📸 - by our oldest

I noticed I gained some new followers recently...Hi y’all! Happy Saturday 🖤 
These days I’m into mentoring and loving first-gen youth from low-income backgrounds & pushing them to be the next gen leaders! Also, working on starting season 2 of Redcouch Podcast with my hubby @prophiphop Expect stories > pictures on IG and LOTS on family milestones! 
Please feel free to intro yourself and share what’s your goal this year (or in life)?
📸 - by our oldest
1329 107 13 January, 2018

Hello lovelies ❗️possible TW❗️ Today has been a really rough day. The last week or so, I have been having really bad thoughts and anxiety towards food and exercise. I& #039;m not going to lie, I have been restricting a bit, and exercising to burn calories. My head was not in a good place, so I talked to my mom about it. She made me realize what I was doing. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? It& #039;s not like anybody is expecting me to be perfect, so why am I trying so hard to be? What matters is that I& #039;m healthy. That I am kind. Not how I look! I denied my self of my hunger all day, and exercised all for the wrong reasons, and I& #039;m sitting here now and asking myself why? It about time I give anorexia a big kick in the butt and have this bowl of fruit and a pumpkin chocolate chip muffin at 9:00 at night. I don& #039;t even care that I didn& #039;t finish my workout because it DOESN& #039;T FRIGGIN MATTER. I need to give myself a break and just live by what I want to do, not what I think I should do. Have a great night, and keep fighting!! . . #healthy #healthyfood #recovery #edrecovery #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #recoveryisworthit #keepfighting #anafighter #anawarrior #bopo #loveyourself #night #snack #healthysnack #fruit #pumpkin #muffin #positivevibes

Hello lovelies ❗️possible TW❗️
Today has been a really rough day. The last week or so, I have been having really bad thoughts and anxiety towards food and exercise. I'm not going to lie, I have been restricting a bit, and exercising to burn calories. My head was not in a good place, so I talked to my mom about it. She made me realize what I was doing. What am I doing? Why am I doing it? It's not like anybody is expecting me to be perfect, so why am I trying so hard to be? What matters is that I'm healthy. That I am kind. Not how I look! I denied my self of my hunger all day, and exercised all for the wrong reasons, and I'm sitting here now and asking myself why? It about time I give anorexia a big kick in the butt and have this bowl of fruit and a pumpkin chocolate chip muffin at 9:00 at night. I don't even care that I didn't finish my workout because it DOESN'T FRIGGIN MATTER. I need to give myself a break and just live by what I want to do, not what I think I should do. Have a great night, and keep fighting!!
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#healthy #healthyfood #recovery #edrecovery #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #anorexia #recoveryisworthit #keepfighting #anafighter #anawarrior #bopo #loveyourself #night #snack #healthysnack #fruit #pumpkin #muffin #positivevibes
55 3 31 August, 2017

James, Power U Executive Director, breaking in his new Power U shirt! #EDGoals #PowerU #LaFamilia #TooMuchSauce

James, Power U Executive Director, breaking in his new Power U shirt! 
#EDGoals #PowerU #LaFamilia #TooMuchSauce
64 1 26 July, 2017

Dinner today was this burger (all of the sauce scraped off though) and a few of the veggies. It& #039;s been such a crazy day. After the breakfast brunch thing we walked...and walked...and walked all day long throughout the city. I hoped the rest over night would stop my knees from hurting but oh my God they hurt. So much. We didn& #039;t have lunch since dinner was quite early at 6pm and breakfast quite late at 10:30am. By the time dinner time rolled around I had just about had enough of walking up stairs, down stairs, through small streets that having to choose this burger was the toughest choice ever. I then had a major meltdown, cried like a baby because my body hurt so much and I just hated myself for choosing the burger. I& #039;m & #039;glad& #039; I ate the burger but God the thoughts are loud and my stomach is in pain. I had to eat it slowly because my heart was hurting too bad. I checked in the toilet and i have small bruises forming where my hipbones are...does anyone else have that? And my right upper arm is killing me everytime I move it. Any suggestions? My dad said he was proud I chose the burger but I& #039;m just so scared of returning home. Flying home tonight and I& #039;ll hopefully be done travelling and arrive around midnight and then it& #039;s off to bed. So you& #039;ve seen all I& #039;ve eaten today. I might have like a trek bar later on if the journey is so long but we will see. It& #039;s been one of the hardest, most painful days I& #039;ve ever had. It didn& #039;t even hurt this bad when I was at my worst in December.  So maybe I& #039;ve gotten worse I& #039;m not sure. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #burger

Dinner today was this burger (all of the sauce scraped off though) and a few of the veggies. 
It's been such a crazy day. After the breakfast brunch thing we walked...and walked...and walked all day long throughout the city. I hoped the rest over night would stop my knees from hurting but oh my God they hurt. So much. We didn't have lunch since dinner was quite early at 6pm and breakfast quite late at 10:30am. By the time dinner time rolled around I had just about had enough of walking up stairs, down stairs, through small streets that having to choose this burger was the toughest choice ever. I then had a major meltdown, cried like a baby because my body hurt so much and I just hated myself for choosing the burger. I'm 'glad' I ate the burger but God the thoughts are loud and my stomach is in pain. I had to eat it slowly because my heart was hurting too bad. I checked in the toilet and i have small bruises forming where my hipbones are...does anyone else have that? And my right upper arm is killing me everytime I move it. Any suggestions? 
My dad said he was proud I chose the burger but I'm just so scared of returning home. Flying home tonight and I'll hopefully be done travelling and arrive around midnight and then it's off to bed. 
So you've seen all I've eaten today. I might have like a trek bar later on if the journey is so long but we will see. It's been one of the hardest, most painful days I've ever had. It didn't even hurt this bad when I was at my worst in December.  So maybe I've gotten worse I'm not sure. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #burger
92 7 24 July, 2017

Dinner....another disaster, starting to see some repetition here? I only ate the fish not the sauce or rice because the rice was like cheesy risotto which is just not what I wanted at all. The restaurant was the worst pick it only had this and then lots of massive meat things cooked in fat with chips as options etc so I didn& #039;t feel comfortable with anything but this was the only thing where I knew I could at least eat the fish. It& #039;s been the worst of days. All I had previous to this was just some cereal this morning that was it. We walked around and I was in so much pain, my knees have given up on me I think. I just want to cry. I can see the disappointment and sadness in my dad& #039;s face all the time and it& #039;s just too much. At least I& #039;m alone in my hotelroom in the evening and don& #039;t have to face them. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #fish

Dinner....another disaster, starting to see some repetition here? I only ate the fish not the sauce or rice because the rice was like cheesy risotto which is just not what I wanted at all. The restaurant was the worst pick it only had this and then lots of massive meat things cooked in fat with chips as options etc so I didn't feel comfortable with anything but this was the only thing where I knew I could at least eat the fish. 
It's been the worst of days. All I had previous to this was just some cereal this morning that was it. We walked around and I was in so much pain, my knees have given up on me I think. I just want to cry. I can see the disappointment and sadness in my dad's face all the time and it's just too much. At least I'm alone in my hotelroom in the evening and don't have to face them. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #fish
72 13 23 July, 2017

Dinner tonight.. .what a disaster. I ordered chicken with roasted vegetables, expecting maybe some tomatoes, peppers brocolli or anything but well this is what I got. The two veggies I don& #039;t like like aatttt all zucchini and aubergine. I tried a bite and it was so gross. So I ate a bit of the chicken (not all of it because it was stuck to the bone and honestly I just couldn& #039;t get myself to) and that was it. I think just the thought of having to eat out 4 days in a row is scaring me so much I& #039;ve gone 100% restriction and just don& #039;t want to eat at all. We went on a hike today (not too long or extensive) which was really nice. Had some cereal for breakfast and a slice of toast with some jam and a cuppa soup sachet for lunch and then this piece of chicken for dinner. Calorie estimates aren& #039;t looking too good right now I& #039;m not gonna lie. I just want to cry ..it just feels like it& #039;s falling apart. Plus my dad& #039;s gf won& #039;t stop saying how fat she& #039;s gonna be everytime we eat something (she is a perfectly normal healthy body type) and that she looks fat and not skinny like me everytime we take a picture and it& #039;s triggering the shit out of me which I know it shouldn& #039;t but it just is 😓😓 im kinds lost right now. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner

Dinner tonight.. .what a disaster. I ordered chicken with roasted vegetables, expecting maybe some tomatoes, peppers brocolli or anything but well this is what I got. The two veggies I don't like like aatttt all zucchini and aubergine. I tried a bite and it was so gross. So I ate a bit of the chicken (not all of it because it was stuck to the bone and honestly I just couldn't get myself to) and that was it. 
I think just the thought of having to eat out 4 days in a row is scaring me so much I've gone 100% restriction and just don't want to eat at all. We went on a hike today (not too long or extensive) which was really nice. Had some cereal for breakfast and a slice of toast with some jam and a cuppa soup sachet for lunch and then this piece of chicken for dinner. Calorie estimates aren't looking too good right now I'm not gonna lie. I just want to cry ..it just feels like it's falling apart. Plus my dad's gf won't stop saying how fat she's gonna be everytime we eat something (she is a perfectly normal healthy body type) and that she looks fat and not skinny like me everytime we take a picture and it's triggering the shit out of me which I know it shouldn't but it just is 😓😓 im kinds lost right now. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner
52 4 22 July, 2017

Dinner today in Geneva was spaghetti with tomatoes and some ham bits (which I didn& #039;t eat) but I ate the rest! Super challenging but I did it!!! (TW) It& #039;s been a very very tough day. I had my usual cereal for breakfast and a slice of toast with jam and a cuppa soup sachet for lunch and then this for dinner. It was so scary and I feel like I& #039;ve eaten way too much. I& #039;ve looked up some calorie estimates and it looks at about 550(?) Do you guys think that& #039;s right? I know I shouldn& #039;t count but this is driving me insane. I& #039;ve accounted 600 for it which puts me at about 1200 for the day so I& #039;m not freaking out toooo much. I& #039;ve been sooo exhausted so it& #039;s been a very weird day. We walked around Geneva but every step was such a struggle and I had to sit down a lot. However after eating this I had a lot more energy and now we& #039;re waiting at the airport to pick up my dad& #039;s gf and then we& #039;ll drive back (so a late night). I wish you all a lovely evening and just want to thank all of you for your continous support. I don& #039;t think I could handle any mean messages today xxxxxx #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #spaghetti #italianfood #geneva

Dinner today in Geneva was spaghetti with tomatoes and some ham bits (which I didn't eat) but I ate the rest! 
Super challenging but I did it!!! (TW)

It's been a very very tough day. I had my usual cereal for breakfast and a slice of toast with jam and a cuppa soup sachet for lunch and then this for dinner. It was so scary and I feel like I've eaten way too much. I've looked up some calorie estimates and it looks at about 550(?) Do you guys think that's right? I know I shouldn't count but this is driving me insane. I've accounted 600 for it which puts me at about 1200 for the day so I'm not freaking out toooo much. 
I've been sooo exhausted so it's been a very weird day. We walked around Geneva but every step was such a struggle and I had to sit down a lot. However after eating this I had a lot more energy and now we're waiting at the airport to pick up my dad's gf and then we'll drive back (so a late night). I wish you all a lovely evening and just want to thank all of you for your continous support. I don't think I could handle any mean messages today xxxxxx
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #spaghetti #italianfood #geneva
82 0 21 July, 2017

Dinner today was some rice with carrots tomatoes and brocolli 😍😍 finally my dad let me eat something vegan and in my comfort zone again, because were going out for dinner the next 4 evenings and honestly I& #039;m severely freaking out and don& #039;t want to do it. (TW) Today& #039;s been a bit tough I don& #039;t know why. I had some cereal for breakfast and we then went out for ice cream so I had two scoops(!!!!) and an apple afterwards for lunch because I just couldn& #039;t face eating anything else. And then this was all I could manage to eat for dinner. I had quite a big night snack yesterday and I think it just triggered bad thoughts or something. Plus like I mentioned earlier im really nervous about the next four days of eating out. I tried to talk to my dad about it but he doesn& #039;t really get why I& #039;m so anxious about it. Any tips on how to get through this?????!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #rice #veggies

Dinner today was some rice with carrots tomatoes and brocolli 😍😍 finally my dad let me eat something vegan and in my comfort zone again, because were going out for dinner the next 4 evenings and honestly I'm severely freaking out and don't want to do it. (TW) 
Today's been a bit tough I don't know why. I had some cereal for breakfast and we then went out for ice cream so I had two scoops(!!!!) and an apple afterwards for lunch because I just couldn't face eating anything else. And then this was all I could manage to eat for dinner. I had quite a big night snack yesterday and I think it just triggered bad thoughts or something. Plus like I mentioned earlier im really nervous about the next four days of eating out. I tried to talk to my dad about it but he doesn't really get why I'm so anxious about it. Any tips on how to get through this?????!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #rice #veggies
100 6 9 hours ago

And here it is my friends, my dinner 😲😲😲 I cannot believe I just ate this. It has been one of my favourite german/swiss/French dinners for years; Flammkuchen! It& #039;s like a pastry Base with creme freche, cheese and little ham pieces and omgosh it& #039;s so tasty. I& #039;ve got a bit of a tummy ache but that& #039;s only natural with a dinner like this. My dad said he was proud of me for choosing it and also managing to finish the whole thing so go me!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #flammkuchen

And here it is my friends, my dinner 😲😲😲 I cannot believe I just ate this. It has been one of my favourite german/swiss/French dinners for years; Flammkuchen! It's like a pastry Base with creme freche, cheese and little ham pieces and omgosh it's so tasty. 
I've got a bit of a tummy ache but that's only natural with a dinner like this. My dad said he was proud of me for choosing it and also managing to finish the whole thing so go me!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #flammkuchen
96 5 18 July, 2017

Lunch today was toast with Nutella (!!!!) And jam and a blueberry yogurt! I& #039;ve got such an insanely challenging dinner coming. It& #039;s a flammkuchen which is like a pizza but a bit different (but calorie wise basically the same...) and I had a breakdown in the supermarket. I was gonna go for a lower calorie ready meal and my dad looked disappointed so we had a chat and I ended up buying the flammkuchen. But I was then so scared to have lunch but thanks to the all amazing @becoming.nenas (I mean seriously she is the best...♡♡) I did and she even encouraged me to have more. This is what this community and friends are for. We all have a different road to recovery and I don& #039;t think we should force one certain way on each other but we& #039;re all here for support. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #toast #yogurt

Lunch today was toast with Nutella (!!!!) And jam and a blueberry yogurt! 
I've got such an insanely challenging dinner coming. It's a flammkuchen which is like a pizza but a bit different (but calorie wise basically the same...) and I had a breakdown in the supermarket. I was gonna go for a lower calorie ready meal and my dad looked disappointed so we had a chat and I ended up buying the flammkuchen. But I was then so scared to have lunch but thanks to the all amazing @becoming.nenas (I mean seriously she is the best...♡♡) I did and she even encouraged me to have more. This is what this community and friends are for.
We all have a different road to recovery and I don't think we should force one certain way on each other but we're all here for support. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #toast #yogurt
114 3 18 July, 2017

And dinner today!!!! Have you noticed yet how obsessed with brocolli I am?! I allllmost feel bad about it 😉😉 A piece of steak hache with brocolli and some baby potatoes and even a little splat of ketchup that was added afterwards. Super yummy!!!! And gotta get that protein in am I right?! 🌸🌸 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #frenchfood #steakhache

And dinner today!!!! Have you noticed yet how obsessed with brocolli I am?! I allllmost feel bad about it 😉😉 A piece of steak hache with brocolli and some baby potatoes and even a little splat of ketchup that was added afterwards. Super yummy!!!! And gotta get that protein in am I right?! 🌸🌸 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #frenchfood #steakhache
91 5 17 July, 2017

Went on another long long hike today!! (Hike details in pic 4) and it was so so beautiful. (TW) Unfortunately we kinda timed everything wrong and thought it& #039;d be shorter and then got back so late blabla la so lunch while hiking was this apple. I realise that& #039;s not a lot especially considering I just burned like 750 calories hiking but it honestly was due to circumstances not on purpose. For breakfast of course I had my cereal again because that always fuels me right! So for dinner tonight we& #039;ve got a piece of meat and some brocolli and some potatoes nomnom non I& #039;m hungry and lookin forward to that!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #hiking #apple #fitness #fruit #mountains #france

Went on another long long hike today!! (Hike details in pic 4) and it was so so beautiful. (TW) 
Unfortunately we kinda timed everything wrong and thought it'd be shorter and then got back so late blabla la so lunch while hiking was this apple. I realise that's not a lot especially considering I just burned like 750 calories hiking but it honestly was due to circumstances not on purpose. For breakfast of course I had my cereal again because that always fuels me right! So for dinner tonight we've got a piece of meat and some brocolli and some potatoes nomnom non I'm hungry and lookin forward to that!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #hiking #apple #fitness #fruit #mountains #france
67 4 17 July, 2017

Yesterday& #039;s dinner was fish with rice and brocolli. I watched to the bone on Netflix yesterday and well...it was quite interesting. I really enjoyed it but wish they had showed more of her recovery at the end and of the impact her situation had on her family and friends, because for me that& #039;s a big factor in wanting to recover. Have you guys watched it? If yes what did you think? And did any of you find it triggering because I personally did find some of it very triggering resulting in a bit of a tough day today. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #fish #rice #brocolli

Yesterday's dinner was fish with rice and brocolli. 
I watched to the bone on Netflix yesterday and well...it was quite interesting.  I really enjoyed it but wish they had showed more of her recovery at the end and of the impact her situation had on her family and friends, because for me that's a big factor in wanting to recover. Have you guys watched it? If yes what did you think? And did any of you find it triggering because I personally did find some of it very triggering resulting in a bit of a tough day today. 
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70 0 16 July, 2017

So today has been the craziest day!!! We set out to hike and OMG we did it!!! We hiked from 1100 to 2600m which is a height difference of about 1.5km stretching over a hike of 7.5km one way! This is the highest height difference I& #039;ve ever in my entire life covered!!!! I am so so proud right now!!! Breakfast was my jordans muesli of course at 8:30. I had 2/3 of a trek bar when we made it to the highest point of the hike at about 13:30 (which I& #039;ll upload a pic of later because it is so aesthetically pleasing haha) and this crepe for lunch (is it still lunch when it& #039;s at 4pm? I don& #039;t know haha) and dinner tonight at like probably 19:30 will be the same tortellini I showed a few days ago (because they are so yummy!) I still cannot believe I did this. What an accomplishment!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #frenchfood #crepe #hiking #fitness #chamonix

So today has been the craziest day!!! We set out to hike and OMG we did it!!! We hiked from 1100 to 2600m which is a height difference of about 1.5km stretching over a hike of 7.5km one way! This is the highest height difference I've ever in my entire life covered!!!! I am so so proud right now!!! Breakfast was my jordans muesli of course at 8:30. I had 2/3 of a trek bar when we made it to the highest point of the hike at about 13:30 (which I'll upload a pic of later because it is so aesthetically pleasing haha) and this crepe for lunch (is it still lunch when it's at 4pm? I don't know haha) and dinner tonight at like probably 19:30 will be the same tortellini I showed a few days ago (because they are so yummy!) I still cannot believe I did this. What an accomplishment!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #frenchfood #crepe #hiking #fitness #chamonix
92 2 14 July, 2017

Dinner tonight was the MOST challenging thing I have had to do throughout this entire process: cheese fondue. My favourite food for dinner in fact and the thing I& #039;ve deprived myself off for 2 years. Not only that I& #039;ve eaten really no proper cheese at all for 9-11 months now so this was such a big win!!! I& #039;ve added the second photo because the one on the left is me before and the one on the right is me after eating this dinner. See any difference? Me neither. The only difference is the added excitement and energy I had because of this yummy meal and the challenge I& #039;d just overcome. It shows that eating a massive meal like this won& #039;t make me suddenly swell up. It won& #039;t make me suddenly gain insane amounts of weight. It& #039;s just a meal...my favourite at that. Don& #039;t let anything stop you, keep going, you& #039;re doing so well #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #cheesefondue #fondue #cheese #frenchfood #vegetarian

Dinner tonight was the MOST challenging thing I have had to do throughout this entire process: cheese fondue. My favourite food for dinner in fact and the thing I've deprived myself off for 2 years. Not only that I've eaten really no proper cheese at all for 9-11 months now so this was such a big win!!! I've added the second photo because the one on the left is me before and the one on the right is me after eating this dinner. See any difference? Me neither. The only difference is the added excitement and energy I had because of this yummy meal and the challenge I'd just overcome. It shows that eating a massive meal like this won't make me suddenly swell up. It won't make me suddenly gain insane amounts of weight. It's just a meal...my favourite at that. Don't let anything stop you, keep going, you're doing so well 
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66 4 13 July, 2017

And dinner today was 2 chipolata sausages (massive fear!) With some potatoes and a cucumber-tomato salady thing. I& #039;m not gonna lie voices in my head are so so so strong right now. They& #039;re telling me to go on a long walk again after this (even though I hiked for like 4 solid hours today....) which I know is stupid but I managed to eat this plate (with a splash of ketchup) so I& #039;m grateful for that. And it was also super tasty so heyho! Hope you all have a lovely lovely evening ♡ #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #chipolata #sausages #summer #grill

And dinner today was 2 chipolata sausages (massive fear!) With some potatoes and a cucumber-tomato salady thing. 
I'm not gonna lie voices in my head are so so so strong right now. They're telling me to go on a long walk again after this (even though I hiked for like 4 solid hours today....) which I know is stupid but I managed to eat this plate (with a splash of ketchup) so I'm grateful for that. And it was also super tasty so heyho! Hope you all have a lovely lovely evening ♡ 
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76 2 12 July, 2017

Another hike today! Bit less of a height difference as it was only 600m but it was a total distance of 11km! Super proud of myself. As always have a picture of my lunch at the end. Had some cereal and a slice of spice cake thing for breakfast and we just bought a super tasty dinner to look forward to! Hope you guys are enjoying these pictures of my hikes and I hope they show you that anything is possible!!! I did not think I could do these hikes but look at where I am now! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #hiking #fitness #lunch #nutella

Another hike today! Bit less of a height difference as it was only 600m but it was a total distance of 11km! Super proud of myself. As always have a picture of my lunch at the end. Had some cereal and a slice of spice cake thing for breakfast and we just bought a super tasty dinner to look forward to! 
Hope you guys are enjoying these pictures of my hikes and I hope they show you that anything is possible!!! I did not think I could do these hikes but look at where I am now!

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64 3 12 July, 2017

Dinner again made by me was brocolli and potatoes fried in the pan with tomatoes onion and some ham thing bits. I& #039;m not gonna lie I was HIGHLY triggered while making this. I felt like it was way too much, like I didn& #039;t deserve it because I (again) had some ice cream today and so I just felt really bad but I managed to eat this whole plate. My dad went for seconds and I couldn& #039;t get myself to do that but I& #039;m also stuffed so that& #039;s not bad at all. My dad said he& #039;s noticed I& #039;m showing more signs of restriction again during lunch and breakfast and he& #039;s a bit worried but I promised him it& #039;ll all be fine. We& #039;ve got another hike planned for tomorrow so I& #039;m very excited for that! Maybe I& #039;ll upload some pictures again? #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #potatoes #brocolli #healthy

Dinner again made by me was brocolli and potatoes fried in the pan with tomatoes onion and some ham thing bits. 
I'm not gonna lie I was HIGHLY triggered while making this. I felt like it was way too much, like I didn't deserve it because I (again) had some ice cream today and so I just felt really bad but I managed to eat this whole plate. My dad went for seconds and I couldn't get myself to do that but I'm also stuffed so that's not bad at all. My dad said he's noticed I'm showing more signs of restriction again during lunch and breakfast and he's a bit worried but I promised him it'll all be fine.
We've got another hike planned for tomorrow so I'm very excited for that! Maybe I'll upload some pictures again? 
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76 7 11 July, 2017

And dinner was half of this packet of beef tortellini with a sauce that I made consisting of tomatoes, a green bell pepper and onion, garlic and basil. Super yummy, filling AND a recovery win because tortellini still scare the crap out of me. I bought myself a milka waves chocolate bar which I& #039;ve wanted to try for ages!!!! Like...AGES!!! So once my stomach has some space (hopefully) for a night snack I& #039;m gonna try a bite of that!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #tortellini

And dinner was half of this packet of beef tortellini with a sauce that I made consisting of tomatoes, a green bell pepper and onion, garlic and basil. Super yummy, filling AND a recovery win because tortellini still scare the crap out of me. 
I bought myself a milka waves chocolate bar which I've wanted to try for ages!!!! Like...AGES!!! So once my stomach has some space (hopefully) for a night snack I'm gonna try a bite of that!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #tortellini
67 2 10 July, 2017

So some people said they would in fact like to see pictures of my hikes so here they are (plus a pic of my lunch at the end!) I cannot believe I did this. A week ago I thought hiking was out of the question. My dad made sure I was alright throughout the hike and we ended up actually covering 700m in height which is crazy! You can see in one of the pictures what the elevation difference was and the speed etc for those that are interested haha This morning I had 1/2 cup of jordans cereal at 10am for breakfast. During the hike I had a small (70cal) muesli bar and of course a lot of water and on the last picture you see the lunch I made once we got back at 4pm consisting of a tomato cuppa soup sachet thing with a slice of toast with jam and a bit of Nutella so yummy!! My dad said he was amazed at how well I did and really proud and said if I continue doing well we can attempt another hike on Wednesday or Thursday! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #vegetarian #fitness #hiking #holiday #france

So some people said they would in fact like to see pictures of my hikes so here they are (plus a pic of my lunch at the end!) I cannot believe I did this. A week ago I thought hiking was out of the question. My dad made sure I was alright throughout the hike and we ended up actually covering 700m in height which is crazy! You can see in one of the pictures what the elevation difference was and the speed etc for those that are interested haha

This morning I had 1/2 cup of jordans cereal at 10am for breakfast.  During the hike I had a small (70cal) muesli bar and of course a lot of water and on the last picture you see the lunch I made once we got back at 4pm consisting of a tomato cuppa soup sachet thing with a slice of toast with jam and a bit of Nutella so yummy!! My dad said he was amazed at how well I did and really proud and said if I continue doing well we can attempt another hike on Wednesday or Thursday!

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60 4 10 July, 2017

Might not look the most attractive but was super super nice! Some fish and mushroom rice with veggies stirred into it. 🐟🍅🌶🍚 Such a big win! Two days in a row of a very big dinner of roughly 450-500 calories! 😲😲 I am so proud of myself for doing this because the thoughts to restrict are so big all the time. I have never and I do mean NEVER in the past year had two days of a big dinner. This is the first time! I& #039;m just feeling really positive right now because I am actually doing what I promised to my body. I promised I would take care of it here in France and so I am. 💕💕 I went on just a short walk today 🗻 but we& #039;re planning to try and hike properly a bit tomorrow for a few hours (just seeing how far I& #039;ll get) so for that I need a good amount of energy! I& #039;m so excited! I& #039;ve got a new cereal (Jordans) to try out so that& #039;ll give me plenty of energy and I& #039;ll bring a trek bar just in case! Would you guys like to see pictures of my hikes?? Also send me or comment some questions about anything and everything that I can answer! 😊😊 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #fish #rice #holiday #travel

Might not look the most attractive but was super super nice! Some fish and mushroom rice with veggies stirred into it. 🐟🍅🌶🍚 Such a big win! Two days in a row of a very big dinner of roughly 450-500 calories! 😲😲
I am so proud of myself for doing this because the thoughts to restrict are so big all the time. I have never and I do mean NEVER in the past year had two days of a big dinner. This is the first time! I'm just feeling really positive right now because I am actually doing what I promised to my body. I promised I would take care of it here in France and so I am. 💕💕 I went on just a short walk today 🗻 but we're planning to try and hike properly a bit tomorrow for a few hours (just seeing how far I'll get) so for that I need a good amount of energy! I'm so excited! I've got a new cereal (Jordans) to try out so that'll give me plenty of energy and I'll bring a trek bar just in case!

Would you guys like to see pictures of my hikes?? Also send me or comment some questions about anything and everything that I can answer! 😊😊 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #fish #rice #holiday #travel
82 7 9 July, 2017

Dinner tonight was super super scary but I did it!!!! Brocolli with 125gr steak hache and some potatoes. I ate it all even though I was quite full and the potatoes were so so scary because they had this like seasoning with oil on them and shit but I continued to finish. I knew I had to after that hike today. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #france #steakhache #brocolli #potatoes #holiday

Dinner tonight was super super scary but I did it!!!! Brocolli with 125gr steak hache and some potatoes.  I ate it all even though I was quite full and the potatoes were so so scary because they had this like seasoning with oil on them and shit but I continued to finish. I knew I had to after that hike today. 
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76 0 8 July, 2017

My celebratory dinner yesterday was this salmon with rice (but I only ate about 1/3 of the rice because it didn& #039;t have much taste) and 2....YES 2!!!! scoops of ice cream as desert. Today I had 2 croissants for breakfast and they were maaasssiiivvvee. I then decided that I wouldn& #039;t let Ana ruin my hiking trip and set out for a walk but ended up hiking up to the glacier which took only about 35 mins up and 20 mins down with a heigh difference of about 300m. It felt so so soooo good. We bought new hiking boots for me and are planning to ease me into some walking and if at any point it& #039;s too much we can always just turn around. I& #039;m so excited!!!!! I am not ready to give up these mountains because of Ana. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #desert #icecream #salmon #france #restaurant

My celebratory dinner yesterday was this salmon with rice (but I only ate about 1/3 of the rice because it didn't have much taste) and 2....YES 2!!!! scoops of ice cream as desert. 
Today I had 2 croissants for breakfast and they were maaasssiiivvvee. I then decided that I wouldn't let Ana ruin my hiking trip and set out for a walk but ended up hiking up to the glacier which took only about 35 mins up and 20 mins down with a heigh difference of about 300m. It felt so so soooo good.  We bought new hiking boots for me and are planning to ease me into some walking and if at any point it's too much we can always just turn around. I'm so excited!!!!! I am not ready to give up these mountains because of Ana. 
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51 0 8 July, 2017

So I got my grade for my year at uni today and OMG I GOT A DISTINCTION!!! That& #039;s the highest grade you could get meaning I& #039;m off next year to start properly on my space science and astronomy course!! I am so so proud of myself I& #039;m not gonna lie. It& #039;s been a year with so many challenges and becoming this person controlled by Ana but I didn& #039;t let it affect my grades and pushed through. First way to celebrate is by getting a proper meal deal! A WHOLE MEALDEAL. I am planning to eat the sandwich AND the crisps (I always only got a low cal sandwich) . Depending on the time we& #039;ll get to our apartment in France well go out for a celebratory meal either tonight or tomorrow as well! Let summer begin! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #mealdeal #whsmith #airport #travel

So I got my grade for my year at uni today and OMG I GOT A DISTINCTION!!! That's the highest grade you could get meaning I'm off next year to start properly on my space science and astronomy course!! I am so so proud of myself I'm not gonna lie. It's been a year with so many challenges and becoming this person controlled by Ana but I didn't let it affect my grades and pushed through. First way to celebrate is by getting a proper meal deal! A WHOLE MEALDEAL. I am planning to eat the sandwich AND the crisps (I always only got a low cal sandwich) . Depending on the time we'll get to our apartment in France well go out for a celebratory meal either tonight or tomorrow as well! 
Let summer begin!

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78 3 7 July, 2017

A little update It is great to be back in London for a few days. I am setting off to France tomorrow and I& #039;m really really excited. Since being back for 2 days my eating has been a bit better. Not amazing...but better. I am looking forward to being away and in the mountains for the next 2,5 weeks. I don& #039;t know how often I& #039;ll post. Maybe loads maybe very little. But I appreciate this community so much it& #039;s crazy. I& #039;ve met amazing people including @becoming.nenas and I am so grateful to be able to call her a friend 💕💕 Recovery is not a straight road. It goes up and down and takes you to so many unknown places, and that& #039;s what is scary about it. That& #039;s what prevents me from taking the next step, because I don& #039;t know what& #039;s coming. But that& #039;s ok. There& #039;s only one way to overcome a fear and that& #039;s by challenging it. So that& #039;s what I will do in France. France will be my start to the end. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive

A little update 
It is great to be back in London for a few days. I am setting off to France tomorrow and I'm really really excited.  Since being back for 2 days my eating has been a bit better. Not amazing...but better. I am looking forward to being away and in the mountains for the next 2,5 weeks. I don't know how often I'll post. Maybe loads maybe very little. But I appreciate this community so much it's crazy. I've met amazing people including @becoming.nenas and I am so grateful to be able to call her a friend 💕💕 Recovery is not a straight road. It goes up and down and takes you to so many unknown places, and that's what is scary about it. That's what prevents me from taking the next step, because I don't know what's coming. But that's ok. There's only one way to overcome a fear and that's by challenging it. So that's what I will do in France. France will be my start to the end. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive
60 6 6 July, 2017

Breakfast today on my last morning in Manchester is a bowl with some bran flakes with dried fruit in it. Had an amazing time in Manchester but am also ready to go home and then jet off to France on Friday! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #cereal

Breakfast today on my last morning in Manchester is a bowl with some bran flakes with dried fruit in it. 
Had an amazing time in Manchester but am also ready to go home and then jet off to France on Friday! 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #cereal
72 1 4 July, 2017

5 slices of this 10 inch pizza yesterday for dinner!!! 😲😲 Super scary but really exciting and tasty. It was little cheese, tomato and some turkey ham bits. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #pizza #dinner #recoverywin

5 slices of this 10 inch pizza yesterday for dinner!!! 😲😲 Super scary but really exciting and tasty. It was little cheese, tomato and some turkey ham bits. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #pizza #dinner #recoverywin
125 2 4 July, 2017

This was dinner last night followed by a massive and I do mean massive night snack of yogurt, ice cream and cookies. It all didn& #039;t fall very well on my stomach so I felt so so sick during the night and this morning as well. But this morning breakfast soon will just be porridge again and hopefully that& #039;ll settle my stomach a little bit. I had some tough conversations with my dad last night and the night before. I told him that it seemed that nothing really faced me anymore and that concerned me. Like hearing I might go inpatient didn& #039;t face me. Hearing I& #039;d be force fed didn& #039;t face me. So he asked me if I wanted to know what the consequences would be and I said yes. He explained to me how going inpatient would halt my life...in the best case. How in the worst case it could mean my own funeral. He told me how he& #039;d feel etc. Part of me again wasn& #039;t faced by all of this but another part (the more sane part I& #039;d say) was. I have to do better. Two more weeks or so of this and I& #039;m in hospital. So let& #039;s do it today, tomorrow and every single day going forward. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #readymeal #sainsburys

This was dinner last night followed by a massive and I do mean massive night snack of yogurt, ice cream and cookies. 
It all didn't fall very well on my stomach so I felt so so sick during the night and this morning as well. But this morning breakfast soon will just be porridge again and hopefully that'll settle my stomach a little bit. 
I had some tough conversations with my dad last night and the night before. I told him that it seemed that nothing really faced me anymore and that concerned me. Like hearing I might go inpatient didn't face me. Hearing I'd be force fed didn't face me. So he asked me if I wanted to know what the consequences would be and I said yes. He explained to me how going inpatient would halt my life...in the best case. How in the worst case it could mean my own funeral. He told me how he'd feel etc. Part of me again wasn't faced by all of this but another part (the more sane part I'd say) was. I have to do better.  Two more weeks or so of this and I'm in hospital. So let's do it today, tomorrow and every single day going forward. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #readymeal #sainsburys
89 5 1 July, 2017

And I& #039;m back home. Back from the big trip to China. Breakfast this morning was my usual porridge (which feels so great to have again) It was such am exciting trip. I loved seeing my sister again, learning a new culture and exploring again. When I came back my dad however said immediately that he could see I lost weight. If that is the case it means be back down to 46/45kg....the lowest of the low. 1 kg or 2 (2-4 pounds) away from being inpatient. That& #039;s scary. I am off to France in exactly a week so I& #039;ve got a week to get some strength again and then enjoy all the French food. I& #039;ll have more of a routine there again and I& #039;ll be able to go out for food with my dad etc. Hope all you lovelies are doing well and keeping on fighting!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #porridge

And I'm back home. Back from the big trip to China.  Breakfast this morning was my usual porridge (which feels so great to have again) 
It was such am exciting trip. I loved seeing my sister again, learning a new culture and exploring again. When I came back my dad however said immediately that he could see I lost weight. If that is the case it means be back down to 46/45kg....the lowest of the low. 1 kg or 2 (2-4 pounds) away from being inpatient. That's scary. I am off to France in exactly a week so I've got a week to get some strength again and then enjoy all the French food. I'll have more of a routine there again and I'll be able to go out for food with my dad etc. 
Hope all you lovelies are doing well and keeping on fighting!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #porridge
68 4 30 June, 2017

For brunch today I had two of these pancakes and the little scoop of vanilla ice cream on top. Such a big recovery win. However I& #039;m almost starting to regret it because for the past 2 hours I have had the most intense belly ache ever!!!!! I guess such a heavy meal maybe wasn& #039;t the best idea but it was sooooo tasty! And it was so nice to sit with my sister for an hour and just chat and eat. If anyone has any recommendations on what to do that& #039;d be great! I& #039;ve decided to for now just lie down after two hours of walking around shanghai...in the rain..while I have a bad cold. I& #039;m flying back tomorrow so that& #039;s gonna be a hectic 24 hours! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #brunch #pancakes #sweet

For brunch today I had two of these pancakes and the  little scoop of vanilla ice cream on top. 
Such a big recovery win. However I'm almost starting to regret it because for the past 2 hours I have had the most intense belly ache ever!!!!! I guess such a heavy meal maybe wasn't the best idea but it was sooooo tasty! And it was so nice to sit with my sister for an hour and just chat and eat. If anyone has any recommendations on what to do that'd be great! 
I've decided to for now just lie down after two hours of walking around shanghai...in the rain..while I have a bad cold. I'm flying back tomorrow so that's gonna be a hectic 24 hours! 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #brunch #pancakes #sweet
102 5 27 June, 2017

One of the biggest wins so far! I managed after 40 mins of anxiously walking in and out of shops to get myself to buy these two pastries for lunch. Just had them and they were most definitely worth it!!!! Tomorrow is my last day in shanghai and so my sister and me are planning to go to this place called Mr pancake for brunch so that& #039;s gonna be super scary but I am hoping to do it properly!!!! It took me this trip to realise how much I need to start recovery. It took me being unable to properly enjoy a city trip to realise I need recovery. It took me having to cancel a holiday with my friends to realise I need recovery. It took me pain in my knees and my heart to realise I need recovery. It took me way too long. Don& #039;t let it take that long. It& #039;s not worth the months of restriction and pain. Of course what matters most in the end is that you get to realising you need to eat and start recovery but try to get there soon. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #pastries #breadtalk

One of the biggest wins so far! I managed after 40 mins of anxiously walking in and out of shops to get myself to buy these two pastries for lunch. 
Just had them and they were most definitely worth it!!!! Tomorrow is my last day in shanghai and so my sister and me are planning to go to this place called Mr pancake for brunch so that's gonna be super scary but I am hoping to do it properly!!!! It took me this trip to realise how much I need to start recovery. It took me being unable to properly enjoy a city trip to realise I need recovery. It took me having to cancel a holiday with my friends to realise I need recovery. It took me pain in my knees and my heart to realise I need recovery. It took me way too long. Don't let it take that long. It's not worth the months of restriction and pain. Of course what matters most in the end is that you get to realising you need to eat and start recovery but try to get there soon. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #pastries #breadtalk
102 2 26 June, 2017

Lunch was trek bar and then snacked on half this packet throughout the day. (TW)Our day was so hectic because we were walking around non stop going from temple to temple so never had time to sit down and properly eat some (or well even find some because we were far out so no English menus anywhere) Lunch. So I& #039;m only on about 450 cals for the day so far and we& #039;ve walked all day!!! I& #039;m not sure what we& #039;re doing for dinner but it will hopefully be a bigger meal. Maybe another hotpot? That would give me some veggies and stuff. It& #039;s so annoying isn& #039;t it when you start low it just sets you up for a bad day? Once you see you& #039;ve managed to go like 8 hours on 450 calories you start pushing yourself to restrict more? I hate Ana with such a burning passion right now. She can fuck right off. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #snacks

Lunch was trek bar and then snacked on half this packet throughout the day. (TW)Our day was so hectic because we were walking around non stop going from temple to temple so never had time to sit down and properly eat some (or well even find some because we were far out so no English menus anywhere) Lunch. So I'm only on about 450 cals for the day so far and we've walked all day!!! I'm not sure what we're doing for dinner but it will hopefully be a bigger meal. Maybe another hotpot? That would give me some veggies and stuff.

It's so annoying isn't it when you start low it just sets you up for a bad day? Once you see you've managed to go like 8 hours on 450 calories you start pushing yourself to restrict more? I hate Ana with such a burning passion right now. She can fuck right off. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #snacks
54 2 24 June, 2017

Breakfast this morning was 2 small eggs scrambled with some tomatoes and a big bowl (well they& #039;re equal bowls but the bowl is bigger than a mug) of green tea. 〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰(TW) 〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰 I am fully aware that this is in no way enough for breakfast. It& #039;s about 120 calories if I am lucky. However I had no choice truly. This was the highest calorie option I& #039;ve got at the moment. My sister doesn& #039;t really eat breakfast and so there& #039;s really no food in the house except for some tomato cucumber and these two small eggs (that I got to myself since she didn& #039;t want anything) I will try and make up for it somehow but we have a very long busy day ahead with lots of moving around. (TW OVER) I am excited to see more signs today. Yesterday was a good day due to the massive win for lunch and then also had a little snack of a few crisps after my dinner that I posted. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #vegetarian #eggs #scrambledeggs

Breakfast this morning was 2 small eggs scrambled with some tomatoes and a big bowl (well they're equal bowls but the bowl is bigger than a mug) of green tea. 〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰(TW) 〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰〰 I am fully aware that this is in no way enough for breakfast. It's about 120 calories if I am lucky. However I had no choice truly. This was the highest calorie option I've got at the moment. My sister doesn't really eat breakfast and so there's really no food in the house except for some tomato cucumber and these two small eggs (that I got to myself since she didn't want anything) I will try and make up for it somehow but we have a very long busy day ahead with lots of moving around. (TW OVER)

I am excited to see more signs today. Yesterday was a good day due to the massive win for lunch and then also had a little snack of a few crisps after my dinner that I posted. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #breakfast #vegetarian #eggs #scrambledeggs
69 1 24 June, 2017

I did it guys! I finally did it!!! Lunch today was all of those 10 dumplings and a I& #039;d say 1/4-1/3 of the soup!!!! I& #039;m so proud that I ordered it and ate it. I& #039;ve been wanting to eat dumplings this entire trip and I finally went out and did it! I& #039;ve got quite a bit of a belly ache just because I think I haven& #039;t eaten much the past few days so it& #039;s not used to dense food anymore and the soup was quite oily and spicy. But nonetheless I am proud I am. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #shanghai #china #travel #dumplings #hotandsoursoup

I did it guys! I finally did it!!! Lunch today was all of those 10 dumplings and a I'd say 1/4-1/3 of the soup!!!! I'm so proud that I ordered it and ate it. I've been wanting to eat dumplings this entire trip and I finally went out and did it! 
I've got quite a bit of a belly ache just because I think I haven't eaten much the past few days so it's not used to dense food anymore and the soup was quite oily and spicy. But nonetheless I am proud I am. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #shanghai #china #travel #dumplings #hotandsoursoup
68 5 23 June, 2017

Dinner today was half of this vegan chickpea curry with a bit of white rice. Shanghai has some amazing foods honestly!! I am struggling quite a bit though. Any words of motivation are always welcome. I thought being able to eat new foods and not knowing the calories would help but now that I don& #039;t know the calories I am usually so scared that I end up eating very little instead of enough/more. I& #039;m also obviously walking around a lot so I& #039;m just not sure on whether what I am doing right now is right or not. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #curry #chickpeas

Dinner today was half of this vegan chickpea curry with a bit of white rice. 
Shanghai has some amazing foods honestly!! I am struggling quite a bit though. Any words of motivation are always welcome.  I thought being able to eat new foods and not knowing the calories would help but now that I don't know the calories I am usually so scared that I end up eating very little instead of enough/more. I'm also obviously walking around a lot so I'm just not sure on whether what I am doing right now is right or not. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #curry #chickpeas
70 9 22 June, 2017

Lunch today was a store bought salad with eggs and chicken but I didn& #039;t eat the eggs or any of the sauce. Just had an afternoon snack of a trek bar (it& #039;s 5pm already here) because dinner is super later tonight because my sister is coming home late so needed something to pull me over. Relapsing a little bit mentally just in the sense that I feel bad for every single little thing I eat but I& #039;m hoping it will pass soon. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #salad

Lunch today was a store bought salad with eggs and chicken but I didn't eat the eggs or any of the sauce. 
Just had an afternoon snack of a trek bar (it's 5pm already here) because dinner is super later tonight because my sister is coming home late so needed something to pull me over. 
Relapsing a little bit mentally just in the sense that I feel bad for every single little thing I eat but I'm hoping it will pass soon. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #salad
71 2 19 June, 2017

First challenge last night was eating out for dinner and we got a Hotpot. I ate sooooo much omg I& #039;ve not eaten that much in a setting but I think it wasn& #039;t too bad a lot of it was cabbage, spinach, random veggies and some noodles just cooked in a broth. So I think for my mental sanity that calorie wise it wasn& #039;t too dense. I am hoping this adventure out here will continue on a high note. Wish me luck. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #shanghai #asianfood

First challenge last night was eating out for dinner and we got a Hotpot. 
I ate sooooo much omg I've not eaten that much in a setting but I think it wasn't too bad a lot of it was cabbage, spinach, random veggies and some noodles just cooked in a broth. So I think for my mental sanity that calorie wise it wasn't too dense. 
I am hoping this adventure out here will continue on a high note. Wish me luck. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #shanghai #asianfood
56 1 19 June, 2017

ALMOST FINISHED!!! . So pumped I& #039;ve been so committed to my goals! . Eating clean and working out EVERY DAY even on the ship! . #goals😍 #goalsgoalsgoals #shiplife #shiplife⚓ #smilebig #smileforthecamera #girlswhotravel #fitgirlswhotravel #girlswholiftweights #girlswholovefitness #fitgirllife #edwarriors #edrecover #edgoals

ALMOST FINISHED!!!
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So pumped I've been so committed to my goals!
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Eating clean and working out EVERY DAY even on the ship!
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#goals😍 #goalsgoalsgoals #shiplife #shiplife⚓ #smilebig #smileforthecamera #girlswhotravel #fitgirlswhotravel #girlswholiftweights #girlswholovefitness #fitgirllife #edwarriors #edrecover #edgoals
36 0 18 June, 2017

Super late lunch today was this vegan sandwich from WH Smith (not amazing but it did the job of filling me up!) We were stuck in traffic from ages but I& #039;m now finally at the airport about the board a flight to Paris and then from there 2 hours later to shanghai! I& #039;m not gonna lie I& #039;m quite nervous about a lot of the things; -the food on the plane (or lack of?) -the food in shanghai -the walking around Etc but I am also SOOOOO EXCITED! this is the adventure of a lifetime and I won& #039;t let it be spoilt by anything Ana tells me to do or not do. Also AMAZING NEWS!!!! I got my period last night. Ystrad it is the worst timing ever since I& #039;ll be stuck in a place for 11 hours with it but the news itself is amazing. I haven& #039;t had my period in a year and it just came back last night! If that& #039;s not cause to celebrate idk what is!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #vegan #airport #travel

Super late lunch today was this vegan sandwich from WH Smith (not amazing but it did the job of filling me up!) We were stuck in traffic from ages but I'm now finally at the airport about the board a flight to Paris and then from there 2 hours later to shanghai! I'm not gonna lie I'm quite nervous about a lot of the things;
-the food on the plane (or lack of?)
-the food in shanghai
-the walking around 
Etc but I am also SOOOOO EXCITED! this is the adventure of a lifetime and I won't let it be spoilt by anything Ana tells me to do or not do. 
Also AMAZING NEWS!!!! I got my period last night. Ystrad it is the worst timing ever since I'll be stuck in a place for 11 hours with it but the news itself is amazing. I haven't had my period in a year and it just came back last night! If that's not cause to celebrate idk what is!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #vegan #airport #travel
83 2 17 June, 2017

So it& #039;s been a while since I& #039;ve posted. I logged out of this account because I needed some time. Some time to finish my exams, finish my first year of uni, start the summer properly. I just got home yesterday and tomorrow evening I am off to shanghai for one and a half weeks. Scary? Yes. Severely exciting? HELL YES! I had a lot of bad days these past weeks and didn& #039;t eat a lot. But then yesterday ( the day I offocily finished and came home) rolled around and it was amazing. I ate lots of food and it was almost all uncounted. I am excited to go to shanghai where I have no idea what food have what calories and so I can just eat and enjoy without worrying. I will keep this profile more up to date again since pictures of completely different foods will hopefully look amazing!!! This is the summer of a life time. I will NOT let it be destroyed by this eating disorder. I love you all and keep going my warriors! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive

So it's been a while since I've posted. I logged out of this account because I needed some time. Some time to finish my exams, finish my first year of uni, start the summer properly. 
I just got home yesterday and tomorrow evening I am off to shanghai for one and a half weeks. Scary? Yes. Severely exciting? HELL YES! 
I had a lot of bad days these past weeks and didn't eat a lot. But then yesterday ( the day I offocily finished and came home) rolled around and it was amazing. I ate lots of food and it was almost all uncounted. I am excited to go to shanghai where I have no idea what food have what calories and so I can just eat and enjoy without worrying. I will keep this profile more up to date again since pictures of completely different foods will hopefully look amazing!!! This is the summer of a life time. I will NOT let it be destroyed by this eating disorder.
I love you all and keep going my warriors!

#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive
60 0 16 June, 2017

Lunch today was an egg with two slices of bread and this yogurt. I actually had an afternoon snack today!!! And a proper one as well!! A clif bar!! I& #039;m really really proud of myself honestly. Im already on 850 calories after breakfast lunch and snack which is usually where I& #039;d be after dinner! I also am going out for dinner either tonight or tomorrow night so a lot of exciting things coming. I have been having a lot of pain the past 3 days and am hoping maybe you guys can help. My heart feels heavy and not ok and anytime I get up and move about or whatever it starts to get even worse and I honestly don& #039;t know what to do. Any suggestions on what& #039;s going on?? #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #vegetarian

Lunch today was an egg with two slices of bread and this yogurt. 
I actually had an afternoon snack today!!! And a proper one as well!! A clif bar!! I'm really really proud of myself honestly. Im already on 850 calories after breakfast lunch and snack which is usually where I'd be after dinner! I also am going out for dinner either tonight or tomorrow night so a lot of exciting things coming. 
I have been having a lot of pain the past 3 days and am hoping maybe you guys can help. My heart feels heavy and not ok and anytime I get up and move about or whatever it starts to get even worse and I honestly don't know what to do. Any suggestions on what's going on?? #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #vegetarian
84 1 8 June, 2017

Dinner tonight was chicken and 50gr of rice with kale. 🐣 Therapy today went well. It was the final session before the holiday. I haven& #039;t managed to eat lots today but tomorrow is a new day and I& #039;m gonna try to include snacks and sauces again tomorrow!! My therapist helped me see that I really am on the road to hospitalisation right now with this new weight and I am not going to be able to do what i want in life. Wish me luck guys I& #039;ll need it!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #foodporn

Dinner tonight was chicken and 50gr of rice with kale. 🐣

Therapy today went well. It was the final session before the holiday. I haven't managed to eat lots today but tomorrow is a new day and I'm gonna try to include snacks and sauces again tomorrow!! My therapist helped me see that I really am on the road to hospitalisation right now with this new weight and I am not going to be able to do what i want in life. Wish me luck guys I'll need it!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #foodporn
73 0 7 June, 2017

Snack from yesterday was a peach. (TW) I had my final weigh in today before the holiday. Not so good. I& #039;m back to 104 pounds (47kg) which is about 2 pounds away from being back at my lowest weight. I guess things haven& #039;t been going so well. My bmi has dropped to 16.2 which means if it drops any further I& #039;m again back at being at risk of not being able to attend uni which would be a nightmare. Summer is coming so I am hoping that that& #039;s when I& #039;ll be able to turn things around. I& #039;ll be back home and travelling so I will be unable to make my own meals and restrict as much. Wish me luck my friends honestly I need all I can get right now. xxxx #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #snack #fruit #peach #summer

Snack from yesterday was a peach. (TW)
I had my final weigh in today before the holiday. Not so good. I'm back to 104 pounds (47kg) which is about 2 pounds away from being back at my lowest weight. I guess things haven't been going so well. My bmi has dropped to 16.2 which means if it drops any further I'm again back at being at risk of not being able to attend uni which would be a nightmare. 
Summer is coming so I am hoping that that's when I'll be able to turn things around. I'll be back home and travelling so I will be unable to make my own meals and restrict as much. Wish me luck my friends honestly I need all I can get right now. xxxx

#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #snack #fruit #peach #summer
77 2 6 June, 2017

Dinner tonight was 50 grams of rice with leek and tomatoes and half a can of chickpeas that I baked in the oven. Just had a müller corner as a snack and did a face mask. Exam tomorrow at 9:30am wish me luck!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #chickpeas #rice #vegetarian

Dinner tonight was 50 grams of rice with leek and tomatoes and half a can of chickpeas that I baked in the oven. 
Just had a müller corner as a snack and did a face mask.  Exam tomorrow at 9:30am wish me luck!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #vegan #chickpeas #rice #vegetarian
95 0 4 June, 2017

Dinner tonight 50 grams of pasta with some chopped tomatoes, spinach, carrot and olives. (TW) Really really low on calories today (roughly 550) since I just had 2 slices of toast with spinach and tomatoes for lunch and no snacks at all 😥 I& #039;ve just been busy all day and had no time to eat and make proper meals except this one (but who am I fooling this isn& #039;t a proper meal is it..) So low...but still enjoying life so much. I& #039;m so conflicted right now. About to head out to the cinema so maybe I& #039;ll bring a snack for during the film or something. This did fill me up a lot since I& #039;ve just had 0 hunger the past week or so. God I don& #039;t even know what to do. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #dinner #pasta

Dinner tonight 
50 grams of pasta with some chopped tomatoes, spinach, carrot and olives. (TW)
Really really low on calories today (roughly 550) since I just had 2 slices of toast with spinach and tomatoes for lunch and no snacks at all 😥 I've just been busy all day and had no time to eat and make proper meals except this one (but who am I fooling this isn't a proper meal is it..) So low...but still enjoying life so much. I'm so conflicted right now. About to head out to the cinema so maybe I'll bring a snack for during the film or something. This did fill me up a lot since I've just had 0 hunger the past week or so. God I don't even know what to do. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #dinner #pasta
125 3 3 June, 2017

Dinner today was a very very easy one. Just sautéed some kale, red cabbage, carrot, leek and tomato in some water and voila. It& #039;s been a rough few hours. I just found out my grandmother passed away yesterday afternoon but had hardly anytime to digest this because I had am exam at 9:30 this morning (which went well thank the lord) Now I& #039;ve got 4 more exams to go meaning I can& #039;t go to the funeral which is upsetting. (TW) I& #039;m scared for my doctors appointment on Tuesday since I& #039;ve been eating 1000 calories or less for the past week so I& #039;m not sure what to expect. A friend might be coming with me for moral support though so that& #039;ll be nice. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #veggies #vegan #vegetarian

Dinner today was a very very easy one. Just sautéed some kale, red cabbage, carrot, leek and tomato in some water and voila. 
It's been a rough few hours. I just found out my grandmother passed away yesterday afternoon but had hardly anytime to digest this because I had am exam at 9:30 this morning (which went well thank the lord) 
Now I've got 4 more exams to go meaning I can't go to the funeral which is upsetting. (TW)
I'm scared for my doctors appointment on Tuesday since I've been eating 1000 calories or less for the past week so I'm not sure what to expect. A friend might be coming with me for moral support though so that'll be nice. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #veggies #vegan #vegetarian
69 1 2 June, 2017

Dinner tonight was 3 vegan sausages with 45 grams of rice and some cut up tomatoes and leek and cucumber. Therapy went well today! We are talking about strategies for when I go on holiday and things I have to work on in the coming week. I told her about my concerns with eating intuitively but because of this barely hitting 1000 calories on some days. So she said it was great that at least I am having 3 meals a day but really I have to snack to at least make around 1300 or whatever and really I need to increase. However I am really happy that I seem to be eating intuitively and don& #039;t feel like I& #039;m restricting too much! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #lindamccartney #dinner #vegandinner #foodporn

Dinner tonight was 3 vegan sausages with 45 grams of rice and some cut up tomatoes and leek and cucumber. 
Therapy went well today! We are talking about strategies for when I go on holiday and things I have to work on in the coming week. I told her about my concerns with eating intuitively but because of this barely hitting 1000 calories on some days. So she said it was great that at least I am having 3 meals a day but really I have to snack to at least make around 1300 or whatever and really I need to increase. However I am really happy that I seem to be eating intuitively and don't feel like I'm restricting too much! 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #lindamccartney #dinner #vegandinner #foodporn
73 1 31 May, 2017

Dinner tonight was 1 sweet potato, some chicken and leek all boiled in some chicken broth. Not amazing but nice for a bit of a chilly day. I& #039;ve been feeling so full and good today. I didn& #039;t have any snacks but I also wasn& #039;t hungry at all inbetween meals so it worked out great! I will have a snack later on of course but still it felt great not to feel the need to eat anything else all the time :) #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #soup #foodporn

Dinner tonight was 1 sweet potato, some chicken and leek all boiled in some chicken broth. 
Not amazing but nice for a bit of a chilly day. 
I've been feeling so full and good today. I didn't have any snacks but I also wasn't hungry at all inbetween meals so it worked out great! I will have a snack later on of course but still it felt great not to feel the need to eat anything else all the time :) #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #soup #foodporn
61 0 30 May, 2017

Late Lunch after another exam today (which went really well!!) Was again 2 slices of bread with an egg and a yogurt. I made a new doctors appointment for in a weeks time which will be the last one before the summer holiday. I& #039;m quite nervous about the holiday since its like 3-4 months of no appointments!!! Any tips on how to cope? #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #sandwich #vegetarian #foodporn

Late Lunch after another exam today (which went really well!!) Was again 2 slices of bread with an egg and a yogurt.

I made a new doctors appointment for in a weeks time which will be the last one before the summer holiday. I'm quite nervous about the holiday since its like 3-4 months of no appointments!!! Any tips on how to cope? 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #sandwich #vegetarian #foodporn
73 2 30 May, 2017

And dinner tonight was another vegan buddha bowl! 🌿🌿 •55gr of brown rice (boiled in water with curry powder) • 1/2 a can of chickpeas roasted in the oven • Kale and purple cabbage sautéed in just some water. These kinds of chickpeas have saved me. They are amazing...I love them. Could eat this every day!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #buddhabowl #chickpeas #vegetarian #foodporn

And dinner tonight was another vegan buddha bowl! 🌿🌿 •55gr of brown rice (boiled in water with curry powder)
• 1/2 a can of chickpeas roasted in the oven • Kale and purple cabbage sautéed in just some water. 
These kinds of chickpeas have saved me. They are amazing...I love them. Could eat this every day!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #vegan #buddhabowl #chickpeas #vegetarian #foodporn
89 1 29 May, 2017

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100 12 22 January, 2018

So this is me. I posted this picture of me on snapchat yesterday and suddenly got worried messages from my 13 year old cousin. I haven& #039;t seen her in almost a year and so she had no idea what was going on even though I keep in daily contact with her I haven& #039;t told her because she is so young. But now she knows. She asked me how much I weighed and I was reluctant to tell her but in the end told her it was about 103 pounds. She proceeded to tell me she weighed 120...I weigh less than my 13 year old cousin who is not fat or obese or anything but of normal proportions. That& #039;s when it hit me. I have lost all perspective over what I& #039;m doing, what& #039;s normal, what I should and shouldn& #039;t eat. I don& #039;t see myself as skinny but fat when I look in the mirror but everyone else can see that it& #039;s not right...I don& #039;t look right. Even though it may now satisfy certain social standards, it& #039;s not right. I am determined to get better and am realizing that it& #039;s going to be fucking scary at first. Because I will feel uncomfortable, I will see changed my mind will tell me are wrong, I will start fitting into my old clothes again (hopefully). But there are so many positives. I will be able to run around again. I will be able to go out with friends and I will be able to stand in front of my family as a normal person. Not broken, not fragile or as a medical case. But as a normal person. I can& #039;t wait for that day...to be me again and have that be enough and not be defined by this...thing. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter

So this is me. I posted this picture of me on snapchat yesterday and suddenly got worried messages from my 13 year old cousin. I haven't seen her in almost a year and so she had no idea what was going on even though I keep in daily contact with her I haven't told her because she is so young. But now she knows. She asked me how much I weighed and I was reluctant to tell her but in the end told her it was about 103 pounds. She proceeded to tell me she weighed 120...I weigh less than my 13 year old cousin who is not fat or obese or anything but of normal proportions. That's when it hit me. 
I have lost all perspective over what I'm doing, what's normal, what I should and shouldn't eat. I don't see myself as skinny but fat when I look in the mirror but everyone else can see that it's not right...I don't look right. Even though it may now satisfy certain social standards, it's not right. 
I am determined to get better and am realizing that it's going to be fucking scary at first. Because I will feel uncomfortable, I will see changed my mind will tell me are wrong, I will start fitting into my old clothes again (hopefully). But there are so many positives. I will be able to run around again. I will be able to go out with friends and I will be able to stand in front of my family as a normal person. Not broken, not fragile or as a medical case. But as a normal person. I can't wait for that day...to be me again and have that be enough and not be defined by this...thing. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter
58 4 30 November, 2016

I know it& #039;s actually not funny, but I have to admit it did make me laugh. 🙈 they& #039;ve been having troubles measuring my blood pressure correctly because the cuff was too big for my arm, so today they organized a blood-pressure gauge from the child& #039;s station. And there you go! Works perfectly 🙌🏻 Recovery goals: Fit your arm into an adult blood-pressure gauge cuff 😄🎉 || Ich weiß, es ist eigentlich nicht witzig, aber ich muss zugeben, dass ich schon ein bisschen lachen musste. 🙈 die Pfleger hatten Schwierigkeiten meinen Blutdruck/Puls zu messen, da die Manschette viel zu groß für meinen Arm war. Also haben sie heute eine Manschette von der Kinderstation besorgt und zack-schon läuft& #039;s wie geschmiert. 🙌🏻 Ein etwas anderes recovery goal: der Arm soll in die Manschette eines Blutdruckmessgeräts für erwachsene passen 😄🎉 || #schwarzerhumor #edwarrior #goals #edgoals #goawayana #anawho #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #recoverytime #2fab4ana #happynotskinny

I know it's actually not funny, but I have to admit it did make me laugh. 🙈 they've been having troubles measuring my blood pressure correctly because the cuff was too big for my arm, so today they organized a blood-pressure gauge from the child's station. And there you go! Works perfectly 🙌🏻 Recovery goals: Fit your arm into an adult blood-pressure gauge cuff 😄🎉 || Ich weiß, es ist eigentlich nicht witzig, aber ich muss zugeben, dass ich schon ein bisschen lachen musste. 🙈 die Pfleger hatten Schwierigkeiten meinen Blutdruck/Puls zu messen, da die Manschette viel zu groß für meinen Arm war. Also haben sie heute eine Manschette von der Kinderstation besorgt und zack-schon läuft's wie geschmiert. 🙌🏻 Ein etwas anderes recovery goal: der Arm soll in die Manschette eines Blutdruckmessgeräts für erwachsene passen 😄🎉 || #schwarzerhumor #edwarrior #goals #edgoals #goawayana #anawho #recovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edfighter #edfamily #edwarrior #recoverytime #2fab4ana #happynotskinny
94 16 10 April, 2017

Ate a carbonara for the first time in forever. Tomorrow’s Halloween and I’m going out with mates - can’t wait to get my candy ❤️😋 #eatittobeatit #feelthefearanddoitanyway #eatingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anawarrior

Ate a carbonara for the first time in forever. Tomorrow’s Halloween and I’m going out with mates - can’t wait to get my candy ❤️😋
#eatittobeatit #feelthefearanddoitanyway #eatingdisorderrecovery #anafighter #edgoals #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anawarrior
17 0 30 October, 2018

And dinner today!!!! Have you noticed yet how obsessed with brocolli I am?! I allllmost feel bad about it 😉😉 A piece of steak hache with brocolli and some baby potatoes and even a little splat of ketchup that was added afterwards. Super yummy!!!! And gotta get that protein in am I right?! 🌸🌸 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #frenchfood #steakhache

And dinner today!!!! Have you noticed yet how obsessed with brocolli I am?! I allllmost feel bad about it 😉😉 A piece of steak hache with brocolli and some baby potatoes and even a little splat of ketchup that was added afterwards. Super yummy!!!! And gotta get that protein in am I right?! 🌸🌸 #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #dinner #frenchfood #steakhache
91 5 17 July, 2017

So today has been the craziest day!!! We set out to hike and OMG we did it!!! We hiked from 1100 to 2600m which is a height difference of about 1.5km stretching over a hike of 7.5km one way! This is the highest height difference I& #039;ve ever in my entire life covered!!!! I am so so proud right now!!! Breakfast was my jordans muesli of course at 8:30. I had 2/3 of a trek bar when we made it to the highest point of the hike at about 13:30 (which I& #039;ll upload a pic of later because it is so aesthetically pleasing haha) and this crepe for lunch (is it still lunch when it& #039;s at 4pm? I don& #039;t know haha) and dinner tonight at like probably 19:30 will be the same tortellini I showed a few days ago (because they are so yummy!) I still cannot believe I did this. What an accomplishment!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #frenchfood #crepe #hiking #fitness #chamonix

So today has been the craziest day!!! We set out to hike and OMG we did it!!! We hiked from 1100 to 2600m which is a height difference of about 1.5km stretching over a hike of 7.5km one way! This is the highest height difference I've ever in my entire life covered!!!! I am so so proud right now!!! Breakfast was my jordans muesli of course at 8:30. I had 2/3 of a trek bar when we made it to the highest point of the hike at about 13:30 (which I'll upload a pic of later because it is so aesthetically pleasing haha) and this crepe for lunch (is it still lunch when it's at 4pm? I don't know haha) and dinner tonight at like probably 19:30 will be the same tortellini I showed a few days ago (because they are so yummy!) I still cannot believe I did this. What an accomplishment!!! #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #frenchfood #crepe #hiking #fitness #chamonix
92 2 14 July, 2017

Lunch today was toast with Nutella (!!!!) And jam and a blueberry yogurt! I& #039;ve got such an insanely challenging dinner coming. It& #039;s a flammkuchen which is like a pizza but a bit different (but calorie wise basically the same...) and I had a breakdown in the supermarket. I was gonna go for a lower calorie ready meal and my dad looked disappointed so we had a chat and I ended up buying the flammkuchen. But I was then so scared to have lunch but thanks to the all amazing @becoming.nenas (I mean seriously she is the best...♡♡) I did and she even encouraged me to have more. This is what this community and friends are for. We all have a different road to recovery and I don& #039;t think we should force one certain way on each other but we& #039;re all here for support. #edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #toast #yogurt

Lunch today was toast with Nutella (!!!!) And jam and a blueberry yogurt! 
I've got such an insanely challenging dinner coming. It's a flammkuchen which is like a pizza but a bit different (but calorie wise basically the same...) and I had a breakdown in the supermarket. I was gonna go for a lower calorie ready meal and my dad looked disappointed so we had a chat and I ended up buying the flammkuchen. But I was then so scared to have lunch but thanks to the all amazing @becoming.nenas (I mean seriously she is the best...♡♡) I did and she even encouraged me to have more. This is what this community and friends are for.
We all have a different road to recovery and I don't think we should force one certain way on each other but we're all here for support. 
#edgoals #edfamily #edrecovery #edwarrior #ana #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #recoveryforlife #realrecovery #prorecovery #magersucht #foodporn #eatittobeatit #relapse #anawarrior #anafighter #healthyfood #strongnotskinny #edsurvivor #eattolive #lunch #toast #yogurt
114 3 18 July, 2017